I was bound for Mexico
09.25.05 - 9:19 p.m.

Filled my body with toxins friday for some sort of amusement, sorry to all those involved in the "survival/cleanup" phase.

I am realizing i am not and probably will never be a routinely "responsible drinker", mostly want to hide from alcohol forever. Saturday was a lost day, spent keeping the stomach's contents inside. Slept fitfully all day, took an hour long bath (time lost meaning and I felt like sinking into the porcelain down the drain follow the hot water and don't surface for years). Tonight went home to see the family, aka little sis especially, she was home from south dakota. the dogs are crazy, want to take on jet planes and win, i think they could if they caught a plane. they would have a fighting chance, any way.

Routine routine, the sky turned blue so many shades of blue before it rained. then it turned brown and green and rained, we sat under the canvas and ate meatloaf and later pflaumenkuchen with real whipped cream, not even the stuff with CO2 but the real real real whipped cream. then it was time to go and i came back here. tomorrow is a full day full of lots of things, then tuesday, after my first class, i need/should do laundry. I am out of clean clothes (my laundry has a shirt in it that smells of vomit i don't want to touch it).

Driving home I thought I saw a stuffed tiger in the road, but looking back I'm pretty sure it was a dead possum.

I read today for class and now i'm going to read/knit/regain sanity.