A can of Beans or Black-Eyed-Peas
04.20.05 - 12:30 a.m.

Big scary X2 tomorrow, first at 10:30 then again BIG SCARIER at 11:30. My alarm is set my suit is hanging, I need to find pantyhose and guts before the morning.

Why is it that big things always happen on the same day?

Today would have been a perfect day to lounge around outside, that is what I would like to be doing, maybe reading or watching people, anything but sitting. in a room, with windows that don't open. That is the problem with my job. It is fine in the winter and even the fall when I don't crave the outdoors. Right now, I do the class->work->dinner->homework route, which does not leave time to be a bum outside.

But I'm lazy. Today was a day where my thoughts wouldn't stay put, I would be all intently focusing on teacher, and then all of a sudden I'd realize that I had totally spaced out the last five minutes, replacing it with the inane dribble spinning through my head. How do you get rid of that? It's all mindless and stuff I don't really want to think about and then I'll be taking notes in history and some sort of trigger goes off and I'm thinking about banana slugs. It wasn't even like usual today, though, where I almost fall asleep and the notes change and I try to take notes on my subconcious- today I just fazed out everything and I wasn't even trying to take notes. And there wasn't that startle awake, it was more of a landing back into what I should be doing. It'll pass, I'm sure.